Chemo No. 2 - Fri. Session - (Journal Date: 4/1/05)


Got to visit those crazy chemo nurses again today. I really enjoy cutting up with them and everyone has a good laugh. Today I got the 4 medicines in the CHOP recipe. Its like having an appetizer, a main course, and a dessert course. Of course I felt pretty good today so we didn't stay much past our scheduled two hours.....sorry to chemo and run!!!

In the days after this chemo I did feel more "drugged," but I wasn't sure what to expect. I did notice that my teeth and gums felt different and more dry than usual. The literature mentioned that chemo could be hard on these areas. Also, after the CHOP chemo, I become much more emotional, tend to lose my balance at times, and have some difficulties with short-term memory.

I think that I mentioned in a previous journal entry how difficult it is for a spouse when someone enters into a cancer journey. It seems like all the worry and prayers are for the patient, but a spouse has their life completely and abruptly changed as well. I am so fortunate to have a wife and family that understand and give of their love unconditionally. I am familiar with a saying that goes something like..."when you have your health you have everything." Not so. It is far better to experience the heartfelt, unconditional love of family and friends. When you have a heart and soul connected to yours that says, "I love you and I'm here for you, then you truly have everything!" If heartfelt love is the all-time healer, then I'm in good shape.

Eleanor Roosevelt said, "You gain strength, courage, and confidence by each experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along."



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